I know I talk a lot about how losing my job affected me last summer, but the truth is until I land a new job I still have this lingering feeling of failure. Now it was in a sense a blessing to be able to move from FL to TN without the added pressure of having to immediately find a job. I was still collecting those wonderful if not small unemployment checks. Those have stopped and I am once again thrust into the rejection that is job hunting.
Constantly applying and almost never even having someone return a call or email is probably the most frustrating thing ever! However I keep telling myself that the more I get my resume out there the better chance I have.
I've had plenty of interviews and even turned down a job but I'm still searching, still stuck. The most common question I get asked in my interviews is why I want to go back to work after being home with Hudson for over a year now. It's a hard question to answer, on one hand I yearn to be back in the workplace, contributing to our family, etc., on the other hand I do love being home with Hudson, so I always feel awkward answering.
M and I have had many discussions about how much I would need to make to work either part-time or full-time to make it even worth it with the cost of child care and commuting. We've all but exhuasted all the if's and's and but's.
I guess I'm just ready for everything to fall into place and move forward in this season of my life. I don't like feeling stuck, it doesn't suit me. So while I continue to run in place I will keep the faith because I know HE has a plan for me and my family.
